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I’m at my wit’s end
I am so frustrated. I don’t know whether to scream, cry, or crawl into a ball and go back to bed.
I’ve written before about Number One’s lack of motivation, poor grades, and off-the-charts I.Q. I’ve told you how frustrated I get.
I’ve written about his gluten intolerance and how crazy it makes him. I’ve told you how frustrated I get.
Take all of those feelings of frustration, multiply them by a fucktillion, and THAT is where I am right now.
Without getting into too many details, we have had a gluten breach.. it’s a big one.. it will take him MONTHS to get it out of system and get back on track. In the meantime he is not turning in assignments, receiving F’s, walking around the house like he’s been smoking chronic and could care less about any of it.
I’m so sad. I’m so angry. I’m completely pissed. I have all but shut down. I cannot deal with him. I cannot talk to him. I can barely look at him. THAT, my friends, is a horrible place to be as a mother.
I have turned him over to Seven. They are so close.. I thought maybe it would be better. It’s not. Now I’m mad at Seven also. Why? Because my husband {who is a wonderful husband and father} is not a parent to Number One. He is a fraternity brother. They are best friends. It’s awesome and it sucks. In our non-parenting life, I behave more like a frat-boy than Seven does. But at home, with Number One, it’s all fraternity all the time. And that’s not okay. We cannot live in a fraternity house. I’ve done that before (literally).. We have to be PARENTS or the next thing you know there will be roofies, empty kegs, morning-after pills and red solo cups covering my living floor, but I digress..
I am very hard on Number One. I didn’t want to handle this situation by yelling and screaming and punishing. I thought Seven could reason with him. Explain why none of what is happening is okay. I think he’s tried. But then instead of making him stay home and complete missed work, he takes him to lunch. Number One has lost television privledges and Seven rents a movie for them to watch together. And I’ve sat back and said nothing. Maybe his way would work.
It hasn’t.
And now, my son… who has Ds and Fs in 5 of his 7 classes (he has B’s in Band and PE).. has nothing left to lose. His social life is dead. He has no phone, no TV, no internet. And he doesn’t care. He just doesn’t. And if he can still hang out with his dad, none of the rest of it matters. I can’t take his dad away. I can’t make Seven be something that he’s not. I want him to be more forceful but frankly, I honestly can hardly be around Number One right now.. He needs to have one parent to show him affection and understanding. I’m trying, but I’m just not there yet. And yes.. I know that is horrible. I know it is. Judge me all you want.. I’d probably be judging you too. But I’m nothing if not honest and this is honestly how I’m feeling.
I’m taking him to the doctor of natural medicine and the acupuncturist this week to try to get a read on exactly what is wrong with him internally other than the gluten reaction. I’m doubling up on my Zoloft. I’m trying to have patience. I’m trying to be the mother he needs right now. I am trying. But I’m not there. I’m not even close.
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Deed breath love. Unfortunately, welcome to the world of adolescence. Because you care enough to multiply your frustration by a fucktrillion (I’m totally stealing that btw), you will get through this and he won’t end up free basing on the street. It’s going to take time and communication with Seven and Number One and lots of vodka and tears but you are strong and you will make it though this. Hell, if you managed to live through your college years you can survive ANYTHING – even this.
I don’t know, but it sounds to me like you are being *exactly* the parent he needs right now. Maybe not the one he wants, maybe not the one you want to be, but a lot like the one he needs.
Agreed! And much love be ing sent your way. Thank you for being you and writing about how the rest of us are feeling some days!
Totally completely and wholeheartedly agree! I hate having to be the hard ass, but sometimes it’s more than necessary. I don’t get why the Grumpasaur is Drama’s bestie, or why he feels it’s ok to undermine me at every turn. Especially since if I do it to him, it’s freaking armageddon in our house.
Just keep being you. The boys all know you love them, but that totally does not mean you always have to LIKE them.
uh.. why are you being so nice to me? did justin tell you to?
I’m so sorry this is happening. For all of you. Your natural doc…do they do muscle testing – Applied Kinesiology? Often it’s Chiropractors who do this, but not all of them…it’s a completely different modality. That can help alot with whole body systems. I’m also a big fan of acupuncture.
Have you tried asking him what he wants? Maybe he will work to earn something new and different (instead of not caring about getting what he’s lost)? I also remove privileges when life takes these kinds of turns…and often to no avail. Maybe a different perspective.
Hold tight. Breathe. Have a drink (or 10). Know that this will pass. Maybe a bad report card will kick him in the arse. I don’t get why they don’t really care at this age – I have similar issues w/ my #1 who is also in 6th grade.
lots of good energy and love your way! xoxo
HMM, so sorry you’re feeling at your wits end. This parenting gig really does suck sometimes and it feels like you have nowhere to go and no options. Have you considered putting him in tutoring or some sort of educational assistance program? I think you definitely need to have a one-on-one chat with Seven so you guys can be on the same page. There’s no question that you will both parent differently, but if you have the same goal in sight, maybe the different approaches will get you there. Maybe not. But at least you would be on the same page and wouldn’t feel like you’re out there alone trying to fix the problems. No matter what, don’t let your son make excuses. As soon as I start hearing excuses, the only thing out of my mouth is this: “I don’t want to hear excuses. I want to see results.” Repeat as many times as necessary so that they understand you’re not going to listen to any excuses. Hang in there
yes. thank you. He does not need tutoring. He’s a damned genius. When he has gluten, it makes him crazy.. lethargic, ADD, completely unmotivated and disinterested in everything. This is the biggest gluten “breach’ we’ve had in years and I don’t know how long it will last. My frustration is doubled due to the fact that he knowingly did this. It wasn’t an accident.
I can imagine the self-sabotage is really making you shake your head at him. Is he maybe not challenged enough at school so he’s bored? I hear that about geniuses … I have the same problem with my son at times, even though it’s not medical and he’s no genius. He’s just lazy and doesn’t care a lot of times. Since the beginning of him being in school, this boy has never had homework. Never. Always does all of his work at school. Now he’s in the 10th grade. How does that even happen?! I like Traci’s idea of maybe giving him a goal to work toward. Something he really wants. I tried this with my son one year with an electric guitar. He didn’t make it, so I’m thinking he didn’t want it that badly, but he made an effort there for a while.
This post scares me. I have a child that is only 10 but already doesn’t care. He gets on my last nerve daily. We joked about writing “and mom hasn’t killed Dub yet” in our holiday cards or that he’s still an asshole.
Sorry you are going through this, stay strong, drink lots and this too shall pass, hopefully.
I am so sorry! Maybe he needs to talk to a therapist…just him…maybe he can spill his guts without you and your husband around.
i have him visiting the counselor at school. she thinks he just wanted pizza.. no biggie. most of his teachers have been amazing..
I’ve been exactly where you are at. My son completely shut down in middle school, preferring to be the class clown vs a student. He went from being an A/B student to having less than a 1.0 gpa and didnt care. Ironically the only classes he did well in were Band and PE much like your son. I took him to therapists, tried every parenting trick/technique/workshop I could find. I tried everything I could and none of it mattered, nothing resulted in permanent change. That was 5 years ago, my son is now 17 and it’s STILL a struggle to get him to care about his grades, his future. Things have gotten better, and i’m still exhausted, worn thin from years of being the helicopter parent who might as well handed in his homework for him (he would do the work and not turn it in…), but things changed..when he started dating a smart girl in his class. She really is my savior, because in her 15 year old voice (they were friends for two years prior to dating) she was able to say the same things i did, but he listened to her. Hell if i know why. It pissed me off at first that he listened to her over me, but in the end, all that matters is he LISTENED. And now because he wants to keep up with her academic achievements, he does better…a lot better. I say all of this not so you play matchmaker for your son, but to say, it will get better, and it will happen over the darndest thing. I went to therapy as well, to deal with the frustations and the feelings of failure i had. I went to the same therapis that I had my son see, and that really helped. I’m a single parent and i attributed all of his shortcomings to something that i did,or had not done for him. It’s horrible to feel like you’ve failed at your most important job, being a mom. I felt better after talking, crying and letting go of some of the anger that was brewing inside of me. I live in the Orlando area and found some really good resources that helped me.I made him a part of seeking out alternative education options and let him see the action that was gong to happen if he didnt change his behavior. Being emotionally clear and less frustrated really helped me center, be able to talk to him without screaming or breaking down in tears.
Keep your head up and remember you will make it through this.
Have you talked to his teachers? Maybe they have ideas about motivating him that you can try. I’m sure they have dealt with situations like this before. And since he has nothing to lose now, maybe something to gain if he turns it around? Maybe you could bribe him.
Let Muffy take him to a bar. Give the boy some incentive.
that’s a great idea. but beer has gluten and Muffy only drinks Bud Light. I think 11 is a litle early to start him on the hard stuff.
they make gluten free beer. it is isn’t worth drinking…but they make it. I have a friend with Celiacs and she says bud light is rice beer. i don’t think that’s worth drinking either…but it’s gluten free.
Fat Tuesday daiquiris are gluten free— just saying
You need to invent gluten free beer. What is he supposed to do in college? He has a reputation to live up to.
Much love and support going out to you. Hang in there… God Speed – Mama!
If you “fix” him, you will have mastered the world of the pre-teen, you can write a book and you can be the Hot Mess Teenage Boy Whisperer!
Love you!
Hi, I’m from a family of diabetics. My Mother had it, my sister has it, her two daughters have it.The are 21 and 15 now. I know there are ways of keeping their blood sugar under control. I also know that they don’t always do what they need to do to keep themselves healthy. My sister was a complete helecopter with her oldest daughter. Did no good. She’s a bad diabetic. Her younger daughter is better at keeping it mostly undercontrol. Different personalies. They’ve seen my sister have a restricted license because of the damage she’d done to her vision when she was a teen with bad blood sugars. She’s put everything into place for them to be healthy including put herself into debt to get the latest gadgets. At some point, she realized that she isn’t a bad parent even though her oldests hemoglobins are rediculous.She’s done everything she can, but they are individuals, just like she was at their ages, and are going to do what they want to do, even after seeing what she has gone through. She hasn’t given up, and I’m not saying you should either. Fight the good fight. Try as hard as you can. But don’t let it beat you up, or doubt yourself. He’s a kid, doing what dumb kids do. Your just the poor idiot who has to worry about him.
Looks like you need to get a some matching shirts made for the two of you and when you ride the bus wearing the same outfit maybe he will think twice. A weeks worth of classes and lunch room experience witg his Mom should shock anyone out of Glouten Coma.
Don’t beat me up for grammar and spelling its was from my phone
There is absolutely nothing I can say to you in a form of advice that you don’t already know and haven’t researched ad nauseum. You are that fabulous of a mom. I have one son and my shit is far less together than yours. I am sorry that you are going through this, but I have no doubt that you will find a way to help him turn things around. He is finding a way to to rebel against his diet restrictions because he is an adolescent and that is what they do (again, I’m not telling you anything you don’t know). I pray for your patience and sanity during this, and promise to send you some of my extra vodka if shit starts getting super dicey over there…
you have extra vodka?
That’s not common knowledge?
not that you have EXTRA.. I do not generally have extra vodka.
You thought I was kidding about getting a liquor sponsor for GNO… I was sooo not kidding.
do it! In other news.. I’m FBing with your co-Cool Girl about boots
or am I booty-ing with you?? shitballs.. i get confused.
It’s me on both sides
The other cool girl is flying over the ocean somewhere between Sweden and Florida right now. (She’s coming home for the month). I’m just spreading the lurve…
that makes me giggle.
All I can give you is a virtual hug and presents from the dollar store if you would like
I am pretty sure I would react the same way you are. My 13 yo, the one who is so freaking smart and taking his SATs (yes, SATs) in 3 weeks and the one who has never every gotten in trouble at school before, came home with a detention the other day. I gave him the silent treatment and then questioned him to death about each one of his friends…
See what the natural docs say and then sit down and talk to Seven about everything. I know what its like to have the dad be the frat brother…it’s hard to talk to them about this stuff. But you are you and you can do this. It looks gloomy now, but everything will be ok.
Hugs…@sunshinemommy
Of course it wasn’t an accident. He’s growing up and wants you to know it. Mine is 15, ADD, and acts just like yours. Like nothing means anything to him. But, it does. Just because he doesn’t show it doesn’t mean that he doesn’t care. My son does this to remind me that he can make his own decisions..that he doesn’t need to be reminded by mom. Hormone overload and for fucks sake, it doesn’t get better anytime soon. When my son almost didn’t pass 9th grade he straightened up to the point where he will get his work done…to passing. He won’t make the extra effort to be *outstanding* but the thought of embaressment among his peers by having to possibly repeat a grade makes him at least attempt to turn in his work. (on his terms) The fact that he is a genius makes the struggle for his individual identity that much stronger I would think. Hang in there, your in for a bumpy ride – but it does eventually get better (so i’m told) Sometimes we need to take a deep breath and realize that we can’t control someone else (even if they are our own) and let them land on their asses once in awhile. Even if it hurts us in the process. *hugs and lots of swigs of wine*
As much as I hate to admit it. I was that child too starting about puberty. My parents could threaten to take away anything and I could care less. JROTC is actually what it took to get my butt in gear. It taught me more about honor, respect, and my future than I thought was possible. It convinced me that my actions today have an effect on what I want in the future. Even my lack of action today can create a future much harder for me to overcome. My parents gave me the choice of JROTC and an alternative school. That was it. It was still a choice for me and I made the best of a bad situation.
I also have a son in 6th grade- and it is an adjustment from 5th grade. He now has 7 teachers instead of one – which means 7 different sets of rules, assignments, etc. He brought home his midterm report card – he had 3 C’s. WTF?? My darling son says, “what’s wrong with C’s, Mom? That’s average!” Really?? How about you give a shit about your grades?? At conferences, I find out from several teachers that assloads of assignments were not even turned in. Are you kidding me??? Getting a C is OK if that was your absolute best effort. Getting a C because you’re a lazy asshole is not OK. I swear this is a boy thing. Do they give a shit about anything?? I’m encouraging (forcing) him to be a helluva lot more responsible.
Unfortunately, I’ve been where you are. In fact, I’m there now…for the third time. I, too, have taken away their ‘lives’ as a result of their poor choices. Having finally squeaked through high school, my #1 is now a thriving college sophomore. My #2 is a HS senior swallowing the bitter pill of his current options – which are the result of his earlier choices. And my #3 (a brand-new 14 year old), is trying to make bargains with the devil (me), to keep from losing a big 8th grade trip. Bottom line, as a parent, you can draw the lines/set the rules/communicate expectations and consequences. You can offer help/resources/guidance. But ultimately, each person must “do” of their own volition. As they get older, you realize that parental “control” is an illusion and one of the greatest gifts (lessons) you can give your children is the knowledge that their actions have consequences…and that they must live them.
What parent wants to see their child fail? I think it hurts the parents more than the child to watch them struggle/fall. But most of the time, when push comes to shove, the kids finally figure it out and soar…
Be at peace, HMM. Your kids have great, loving parents and it will all work out. Wine is an ESSENTIAL tool during this transition, however!
Thank you for being so honest about this tough time in your family. We often think we are the only ones who go through periods like this. Even though I am sorry you are going through it, it is nice to know I am not the only one! Sending prayers and happy thoughts your way.
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I don’t see that anyone else has posted this question, so I will. And you may have already answered it in a different post. I understand his major issues with gluten and what it does to him. It seems to help when that is under control, correct? Have you ever talked to his pediatrican or a psychiatrist about medicationfor a two week trial period? Is that something you are totally against? As for Seven, he needs to step up. Period. I understand him not wanting to be bad cop with Number 1 and possibly throwing a wrench into their relationship. And I agree that one of the best motivators for Number 1 would be if Seven took their relationship to a new level. It seems the time for frat boying it up is over or at least needs to be put on hold. The complete lack of disrespect for all of you in general and you specifically is not the way he was raised. Which makes me think it is possibly something he can’t control on his own? You’ll figure it out. Seven has nothing to figure out. He just has to support you and follow through with love and a firm hand (not literally…I’m not suggesting he start smacking anybody). Try to disassociate yourself from Number 1 actions for the time being. When he is acting this way, imagine yourself kind of metally floating above your body and viewing his actions not as a mom, but as an investigator of sorts. An extremely hard thing to do, but may be helpful. For whatever reason, Number 1 is troubled right now, and as a mom, that is so hard to face. He is also at an age where it could be a phase, but it could also be the start of a long road of sleepless nights and worrying as you both continue losing your connection and influence over him. I have one kid and he is 7. The other women who have posted have had very similar experiences and have made it through to the other side. Work every angle you can think of, and if you and Seven aren’t opposed to medication, I’d investigate that as well. He will find his balance but is not in a position right now to find his center. You AND Seven will help him find it. Take your moments and make sure your’s is intact. Firmly intact. I love you.
We are still going through this. Middle boy is 17 and will have to be a super senior next year because he is not graduating ny time soon. We tried taking away everything with no results. We tried discipline and a therapist. He told his therapist that dad pushed him so they reported to Child Services. Nothing happened except for him to not trust the therapist anymore and not go there anymore. Thing is, he is a great kid, no other problems, funny as hell and sweet. I just don’t know when it is going to”click” for him. I tell him he isn’t hurting me, he’s hurting himself, but that doesn’t help. He is so smart and with minimal effort could pass everything. He wants to be a computer engineer if he ever graduates from high school, lol. Let me know when you find the answer, I am looking for it too. Hugs to you-
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It’s probably different for boys than it is for girls. I’ve raised 3 boys and a girl and my boys were horrible at school and putting forth their best effort was a big no-no. My daughter was a school nerd. Until she discovered boys. And even then she was never horrible.
But… I was that kid. High IQ, special classes, etc., but right around 11/12 I couldn’t be bothered with it. It wasn’t that I didn’t care; it was that I cared too much. Unfortunately, I wasn’t caring about school – I was caring about other things… social things, friends, strange family things, life, hypocrisy (I became aware of it right about then and it really rocked my foundations), all sorts of things that to me, were far more important than stupid school. It caused horrible problems at home – I was the genius… I was the one everyone pinned their hopes on and expected great things from. I didn’t want that responsibility – it was too much of a weight for me. It made me feel like every little thing I did was… an indicator of something – and never anything good. I hated it.
I don’t know if any of that helps you… and I don’t know why I rambled on the way I have, but somehow it seemed important to share that with you.
thank you. And welcome !
I feel for you. I was the same way as Number 1 when I was his age..you know what worked for my poarents.. and now for me the mother of a 15 year old? I had to (and now Nick does) sit at the kitchen table for 2 hours ever night– REGARDLESS if I had any homework. By the time you are sitting there FOREVER you may as well do the homework… and then hand it in just so you dont have to sit there every night.
Good Luck!
this too will end…remember that he is boy + teen = alien from another planet…my son was abducted at age 11, turning 15 soon and just beginning to come home to earth and visit…somehow we have to learn to accep,,,ugh…even love mediocrity, if not for anything else, to keep them alive. Gluten sounds waaaay better than crack.
omg… gluten exposure is just the worst thing- ever. He “looks like he doesn’t care”.. but if my brain on gluten is anything like his.. he does care, and is seriously- screaming silently for it to stop. There is nothing that comes close to the fog that envelopes your brain from a gluten exposure.
He is more probably just grateful to be consistantly breathing and have the actual ability to wake up and just doesn’t have the additional energy level to care about school- or anything else. It’s not him.
Please(please) cut him some serious slack. Gluten sucks the life out of everyone. He isn’t doing it on purpose.. and probably won’t remember anything that happens for weeks.
Gluten is the worst. I raised two kids with this super brilliant vs. crappy school experience on gluten exposure thing already.. and the third is a just a basket case on gluten. The older ones went through this and we didn’t know what would cause this behavior…. now we know. It’s awful. Something little will set them back for WEEKS.
Give him a hug and a kiss… and an Udi’s bagel.
xoxo,
Aunt Bea
Mom of 4 here, 2 boys and 2 girls…. you name it we experienced it. He may act like he doesn’t care about school but deep down he does. You need to become very close with all of his teachers via email. You email them every single stinking day…. he will know. And not because the teachers tell him on purpose. Get involved with the school PTA, fundraisers, band mom etc. Try being the homeroom mom. And number 7? He better get on the parenting boat because a house divided will not stand!You are not put on this planet to be their friends at this age. Trust me…. I know! My kids are 25,23,21 and 18. We are friends NOW…. but not when they were in middle and high school. Being a good parent is the hardest job you will ever have…. if you do it right. And the medications? Please for the love of god…. don’t! Don’t take a normal hormonal pre teen and drug him up. I work in the school system and believe me drugs are not what he needs right now. He needs a level of expectation… and he needs to be held accountable for his behavior. oh and don’t tell him he is a genius anymore…. he needs to understand that he just isn’t that special….yet. He will come around…. and love you and you will always love him…. you may just not always like him. And that… well, that is okay.
Kelly: This is not about medication, it’s about Hot Mess and her frustrations and fears right now. But when I read your comment it really brought out some emotions in me because I have a son who has had difficulties that we began noticing since he was 2. He’s not 7. For 5 years, my husband and I were dead set again putting him on medication. Not judging if other parents did or didn’t….just didn’t want to screw around with our son’s developing brain. The amount of research I’ve done, both through reading, watching documentaries, talking to teachers and to psychiatrists/psyschologist as well as the amount of testing we put him through was all consuming. We tried everything. My husband and I looked at ourselves, how we behaved, reacted, and just parented him on a daily basis. We tried different recommendations and suggestions. At the end of 1st grade, our son was so full of anxiety and was off the charts with his OCD tendancies that he couldn’t do a simple task at school or at home. And he, like Hot Mess’ son, is brilliant. I saw a future for him that was scary as hell and my husband and I finally agreed to give medication a chance for 2 weeks. The change has been unbelievable…and the psychiatrist has him on the lowest dose possible. It helps him get through the stress of school and it wears off within 5 hours. We don’t give it to him on the weekends. My kid is finally able to breathe. I highly doubt he’ll be on medication for very long…just long enough to be able to absorb the self-soothing techniques we’ve been trying to get to work for so long. I don’t know HM’s son, but I know her. She is incredibly, INCREDIBLY smart and intuitive. She and Seven will figure it out. I asked the question because I’m curious to her response…if she tried that route, or if that is something that is not a route she wishes to explore. The words you wrote are your experience. I don’t know you, but it sound as if you are an experienced, loving mother. But when you chose to write, “Please for the love of god…. don’t! Don’t take a normal hormonal pre teen and drug him up,” it upset me. Words have power, and words written in the way you wrote them might make a struggling mother with a struggling child feel like a complete failure. I can say that because I felt that way for about 2 min. after reading what you wrote. And then I thought back to all that we have been through as a family, and I remain steadfast in that this was what my son needed now. You wrote that you work in the school system, and I first want to commend you for that. That is a remarkable thing to do with your life. Truly. As a parent with a son in the school system, all I ask is that you consider for a moment that medication, when given under the experienced watchful eye of a reputable doctor, can be helpful for certain children.
Dear Boo,
I am quite certain that HMM will make the best decision for her child and her family irregardless of what one persons opinion is.
I am so glad that you were able to find a competent physician who listened to your families concerns and was able to come up with a plan that worked for you. ALL I was trying to say was that a lot of what pre-teens go through is NORMAL. This is just my opinion, and only that. We all have them…. along with other things we all have.
My sister in law told me about your blog.. Love it. I realizing I’m coming up on this post a while
After the fact but am curious.. How did you find out that gluten was causing this behavior in your son? The symptoms sound EXACTLY like my nephew- who is a complete genius but acts precisely how you described your son after a “breach” as you called it. I’m wondering if going gluten free could help my nephew?? That would be awesome!!! Going to research it
Honestly feel your pain! When my #1 turned 13, I made up a “Parent/Teenager” contract. We each got to have input into each “clause”. My #1 sounds a lot like yours. This worked wonders!!!
How’s #1 doing these days? Couple things…that Wheat Belly author Dr. Somebody or other (Cardiologist…I have 5 kids, I have no room left in my brain for stupid things like people’s names, it’s full of important stuff like poison control’s phone number and which local liquor stores deliver) Anyhoo, HE says that the Gluten in today’s wheat is literally like heroin to many people! He has a video, I’ll link it to you on FB. Secondly, my almost 23 year old (I know, I don’t look a day over 35, I was VERY young when I had her…but not gross, call child protective services young) was diagnosed at 13 1/2 TO THE DAY with Juvenile Diabetes, and has been a fucktard about taking care of herself ever since. She is as Hippie as a person can be, and a total pothead. I guess the point of this story is that I had to eventually stop trying to manage her disease for her & just hand it over to her. She’s a little better, but still makes me nuts! #1 will either do what he’s supposed to, or he wont. And there isn’t a damn thing you can do about it! Betcha that made you feel SO MUCH better, didn’t it??
You and I are gonna make out one day. Book your ass for the 2013 Million Milf March!
A little late on reading this, but I have to say that you actually gave me a little peace here. I get it! I’m right there with you! My number two (who is 8, almost 9) has had the same issues. Although I love the hell out of the little shit turd, he makes me want to punch a fucking wall…or a mirror…or my ex who I blame his genetic mishaps on in the teeth! Like a hundred times a day! I have said several times (probably more like thousands) that I feel horrible because I cannot stand to be around my own child! Others just don’t get it! The whole “I love being a mom, it’s so rewarding, blah, blah, blah” bullshit is just that! A FUCKING CROCK OF SHIT! Those women are LIARS! Or they just got lucky enough to have perfect kids (yeah, right!) So, no criticism here! I’m happy to hear another mom admit it! It’s just too bad that military school is so damn expensive!