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Dieting makes me want to……


Commit murder?

Eat your face off?


Weigh myself?

NO.  (Well, sure it makes me want to eat your face off and kill you , but that is not what I’m talking about.)

SMOKE!!  Hunger makes me want to smoke.  Cigarettes.  And lots of them.  And I’m not a smoker!   Well, okay, I smoke ocassionally if I’m out drinking, but not in my real life.  I quit “real” smoking when I was 25.  I NEVER crave a cigarette sober at 10 am.  Seriously.  I crave lots of things at 10 am, but cigarettes are NOT one of them.

So, anyway… clearly I can’t start smoking.   For obvious reasons, but also because it is the circle of death….  I can’t smoke without drinking and I can’t drink without eating.  So… instead of just being a chub, I’ll be a chub in liver-failure with black-lung disease.   And that’s not really an option.   I’m trying to get HEALTHIER, not die before my 40th birthday…  Frick! Frick Frick Shitballs Frick!

I would like it noted that my diet began TODAY.  I woke up at 7:15 am.  It is now 12:25 pm.

in my defense….. as if there is one….. I have been LIVING LARGE the past few months…  eating and drinking WHATEVER and WHENEVER I want.  So, while it may seem ridiculous that I am starving and wanting to suck down a pack of Marlboro’s 5 hours into my diet…. it should be noted that I probably have not gone 5 hours without immediate gratification in months.  MONTHS I tell you!!     (Are you getting why I’m a hot mess??  Are you??)

Okay… so I’m not going to smoke.  I am going to scrub toilets.  Maybe without gloves.  Then I’ll be so disgusted and probably have the dry-heaves and definately not want to put these hands anywhere close to this mouth.  So that’ll be good.  That may be my new diet strategy.  Fuck Weight Watchers…  I need to clean up after my disgusting children with my bare hands.   May be the best diet ever.  I may never eat again.   {i’m getting watery in the back of my throat just thinking about it}….


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2 Responses to "Dieting makes me want to……"

  1. Karrie says:

    ha ha ha I have to say I have NEVER thought of that one- grossing yourself out to not eat. I love it! I will be using this POST Halloween/holiday season because there is no way in hell I will be calming down the intake prior to that awesome string of holiday heaven. Of course– that’s not a very good decision. Yours is a very good decision.

  2. kbear0013 says:

    Just wanted to let you know that the best brand of “electronic cigarette” is 21st Century brand. They are the only ones (and I have tried them all) that really make you “feel” like you are smoking. When you inhale, you FEEL it. It’s the best. I use them at work and in places that don’t allow smoking here in Savannah. Go to their website. You can buy them locally and the website gives a list of where you can buy them. You are smoking, but it’s steam!~ ENJOY!~!

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